When I Die I Still Want to be Me

Now that they have made me ill, they think they can control me better. But,when I die, I still want to die as me.

I believe something has been put inside of me. I hear constant beeping and feel electric currents running through my body. My doctors tell me they have never heard of this, but when I Google it, there are literally thousands of people posting on health forums with the same symptoms.

It would be interesting to see how many of them have had surgery--making them vulnerable to involuntary implants of some kind.

This has changed my life. I used to be a happy go-lucky person. Now, I can't do any of the things that made life enjoyable--swimming, hiking, biking, even just walking.

My own family has turned on me. My youngest sister has called me horrible names and accused me of the most vile things. When I tried to talk to her about it, she told me she wasn't going to argue with me and hung up on me. Her mantra in life is "No drama." Which I find odd because she is the one creating the drama by calling me names and accusing me of things that are untrue.

SAY NO TO ANTI-PSYCHOTIC DRUGS

THIS IS WHAT MY FAMILY HAS WANTED TO DO TO ME. 

 

WHY? BECAUSE NO ONE WOULD HAVE THAT MUCH TIME THAT THEY COULD FOLLOW ME AROUND ALL DAY IN RED VEHICLES. 

 

AND YET, NONE OF THEM HAD SOUGHT TO HELP ME PROVE IT OR DISPROVE IT. TO ME, THAT IS LIKE SAYING BECAUSE I HAVE NEVER BEEN TO THE MOON, NO ONE ELSE HAS EITHER.

 

THAT IS WHY I NO LONGER HAVE CONTACT WITH MY FAMILY. ANY SANE PERSON WILL DISCONNECT FROM THOSE WHO WISH TO CAUSE THEM MENTAL OR PHYSICAL HARM.

 

Psychiatric Drug Adverse Reactions (Side Effects) and Medication Spellbinding

Dr. Peter Breggin’s new concept of medication spellbinding provides insights into why so many people take psychiatric drugs when the drugs are doing more harm than good.     Psychiatric drugs, and all other drugs that affect the mind, spellbind the individual by masking their adverse mental effects from the individual taking the drugs.  If the person experiences a mental side effect, such as anger or sadness, he or she is likely to attribute it to something other than drug, perhaps blaming it on a loved one or on their own “mental illness.”     Often people taking psychiatric drugs claim to feel better than ever when in reality their mental life and behavior is impaired.  In the extreme, medication spellbinding leads otherwise well-functioning and ethical individuals to commit criminal acts, violence or suicide.   http://www.drugawareness.org/recentcasesblog/antidepressant-mother-of-columbine-killer-tells-of-horror-10-yrs-after-massacre ^ Luvox and the Columbine High School massacre. breggin.com. The concept of medication spellbinding is a unifying theme in Dr. Breggin’s newest book, Medication Madness (2008), which describes dozens of cases of otherwise self-controlled people who became spellbound by psychiatric drugs, leading them to perpetrate bizarre acts, including mayhem, murder and suicide.      Dr. Breggin’s other recent book, Brain-Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry (2008), presents the science beyond the concept of medication spellbinding in great depth.  The majority of Dr. Breggin's books focus on harmful medication effects on the brain, mind and behavior. Brain-Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry (2008) is the most up-to-date and thorough presentation of his overall views on the dangers associated with psychiatric medication.     It describes how the supposed therapeutic effects of psychiatric drugs are in fact the result of drug-induced mental disabilities. The following very abbreviated summary should not substitute for the more thorough explanations in Brain Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry (2008): •    Antidepressants cause emotional anesthesia and numbing or sometimes euphoria, providing a fleeting, artificial relief from emotional suffering.    Neuroleptic or antipsychotic drugs disrupt frontal lobe function, causing a chemical lobotomy with apathy and indifference, making emotionally distressed people more submissive and less able to feel.  •    Mood stabilizers slow down overall brain function, dampening emotions and vitality. •    Benzodiazepines suppress overall brain function, sedating the individual, with temporary relief of tension or anxiety at the cost of reduced mental function.   •    Stimulants blunt spontaneity and enforce obsessive behaviors in children, making them less energetic, less social, less creative and more obedient.  The individual taking the drugs or the doctor, family and classroom teacher can mistakenly interpret these effects as an improvement when they reflect dysfunction of the brain and mind.     As an egregious example, millions of school children are prescribed these drugs because schools find them easer to deal with when their spontaneity is impaired and when they become more compulsively obedient.  In the long run, all psychiatric drugs tend to disrupt the normal processes of feeling and thinking, rendering the individual less able to deal effectively with personal problems and with life’s challenges.  They worsen the individual’s overall mental condition and produce potentially irreversible harm to the brain. Most recent books by Dr. Breggin:   Brain-Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry: Drugs, Electroshock and the Psychopharmaceutical Complex (2008) Medication Madness: A Psychiatrist Exposes the Dangers of Mood-Altering Medications (2008) Categories of scientific papers by Dr. Breggin: Stimulants and ADHD Ritalin®, Concerta® Adderall®, amphetamines and other stimulant medications   SSRIs and other antidepressants Prozac®, Zoloft®, Paxil®, Luvox®, Celexa®, Effexor®, Wellbutrin®, and other antidepressants.   Benzodiazapines or tranquilizers and sleeping pills Xanax®, Valium®, Ativan®, Klonopin® and other sedative drugs   Neuroleptics or antipsychotic drugs Thorazine® , Trilafon®, Zyprexa®, Risperdal®, Geodon®, Seroquel®, Abilify®, and other antipsychotic medication Special Topics: Psychiatric Drugs Children Legal

 

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Peter R. Breggin, MD is no longer affiliated with the Center for the Study of Psychiatry, informally known as International Center for the Study of Psychiatry and Psychology (ICSPP changed to ISEPP), which he founded and led from 1972-2002, and Dr. Breggin is no longer involved in its conferences. Dr. Breggin and his colleagues have founded a new organization, The Center for the Study of Empathic Therapy, Education and Living (a 501C3) which holds its annual conference in April of each year (www.empathictherapy.org).          WARNING! Most psychiatric drugs can cause withdrawal reactions, sometimes including life-threatening emotional and physical withdrawal problems. In short, it is not only dangerous to start taking psychiatric drugs, it can also be dangerous to stop them.  Withdrawal from psychiatric drugs should be done carefully under experienced clinical supervision. Methods for safely withdrawing from psychiatric drugs are discussed in Dr. Breggin's books, Brain-Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry: Drugs, Electroshock and the Psychopharmaceutical Complex (New York: Springer Publishing Company, 2008) and Medication Madness: The Role of Psychiatric Drugs in Cases of Violence, Suicide and Crime (New York: St. Martin's Press, 2008).

How Electric Shock Therapy Destroys Your Brain

By far the most up-to-date information of the dangers associated with ELECTRIC SHOCK THERAPY (ECT) Psychopharmaceutical Complex, Second Edition (2008). Dr. Breggin brings together and evaluates dozens of articles demonstrating permanent brain damage from ECT including irreversable severe memory loss and wide spread cognitive disabilities.

Many patients lose their ability to practice their professions or to conduct their lives in a normal fashion. Dr. Breggin was the medical expert in the first and only electroshock malpractice suit won by the injured patient. 

He was also the expert in a recent malpractice suit against an ECT doctor that resulted in a settlement of more than $1 million. 


 In 2007 a long-term follow-up study of ECT patients conducted by a team of shock-advocates lead by Harold Sackeim confirmed Dr. Breggin's observations that the "treatment" is devastating to the mental functions, frequently causing dementia with permanent disruption of memory and a variety of other cognitive functions. 


The acronym ECT stands for "ElectroConvulsive Therapy" (also called EST, for ElectroShock Therapy) a psychiatric treatment in which electricity is applied to the head and passed through the brain to produce a grand mal or major convulsion. The seizure brought about by the electric stimulus closely resembles, but is more rigorous or strenuous than that found in idiopathic epilepsy or in epilepsy following a wide variety of insults to the brain. 


 Patients given ECT are administered an electric current of sufficient intensity and duration to produce an acute organic brain syndrome, characterized by the classic symptoms of disorientation to time, place, and person; mental deterioration in all intellectual spheres such as abstract reasoning, judgment, and insight; emotional lability with extremes of apathy or euphoria; and overall childlike helplessness.


 Animal studies show diffuse brain damage following ECT: the most common findings are petechial or pinpoint hemorrhages throughout the brain and surrounding blood vessels, as well as areas of gliosis and neuronal degeneration, with patches of cell death (ghost cells and neuronophagia).

 Occasionally larger hemorrhages and edema of the brain are found. These findings are also seen on human autopsies performed on ECT patients. 


 Electroshock treatment (ECT) was developed in 1938 at a time that lobotomy and insulin coma therapy were already in use. Pioneer advocates of ECT openly admitted that it caused irreversible brain damage. 


In 1979 Dr. Breggin published the first medical book critical of ECT, Electroshock: Its Brain-Disabling Effects (New York: Springer Publishing Company). Dr. Breggin has advocated the banning of ECT, but it continues to be used extensively in most psychiatric facilities. 


In 1985 Dr. Breggin presented as the scientific expert on the brain-damaging effects of the treatment at the NIH Consensus Development Conference on ECT. 


 The best source of up-to-date information on ECT memory loss and brain damage can be found in a chapter in Dr. Breggin’s book Brain-Disabling Treatments in Psychiatry (2008). 


 The following articles present some additional details and a historical perspective on the campaign against ECT. 


 Articles on Electroshock Therapy (ECT) and its dangers by Dr. Breggin or about his work 


 The FDA should test the safety of ECT machines Iatrogenic helplessnes in authoritarian psychiatry Electroshock therapy and brain damage (PDF) 


Electroshock: scientific, ethical, and political issues (PDF) 


Neuropathology and cognitive dysfunction from ECT (PDF) Shock Treatment III: Resistance in the 1980s (PDF) 


The return of ECT (PDF) Brain-disabling therapies (PDF) Jury awards $635,000 in ECT case Proposals for the regulation of ECT 


From Dr. Breggin's blog at the Huffington Post: Disturbing news for patients and shock docs alike.


For books by Dr. Breggin, see his website.

UNLESS YOU REPENT, YOU WILL BURN IN HELL FOR ETERNITY FOR THIS

We can break down the teaching of Psalm 37 into seven major areas:

1. David cautions us not to worry about the prosperity of the wicked. He writes:

Do not fret because of evildoers, nor be envious of the workers of iniquity. . . . Do not fret because of him who prospers in his way. . . . Do not fret—it only causes harm. (verses 1, 7-8)

Jesus includes this point in the sermon on the mount, telling us not to worry about our life, our food and clothing and the troubles of tomorrow (Matthew 6:25-34). Calm down! Do not become worked up over it!

2. David describes the character of the wicked:

The wicked plots against the just, and gnashes at him with his teeth. . . . The wicked have drawn the sword and have bent their bow, to cast down the poor and needy, to slay those who are of upright conduct. . . . The wicked borrows and does not repay. . . . The wicked watches the righteous, and seeks to slay him. (verses 12, 14, 21, 32)

Their evil is obvious to all, especially God. We can be certain that the wicked have not fooled Him.

3. David contrasts the character of the wicked to the righteous:

But the righteous shows mercy and gives. . . . He is ever merciful, and lends; and his descendants are blessed. . . . The mouth of the righteous speaks wisdom, and his tongue talks of justice. The law of his God is in his heart; none of his steps shall slide. (verses 21, 26, 30-31)

The difference in their characters is sharply defined, and we can rest assured that character is what dictates the outcome of our lives.

4. David shows the end of the wicked:

[Evildoers] shall soon be cut down like the grass, and wither as the green herb. . . . For evildoers shall be cut off. . . . For yet a little while and the wicked shall be no more; indeed, you will look diligently for his place, but it shall be no more. . . . The Lord laughs at him, for He sees that his day is coming. . . . But the wicked shall perish; and the enemies of the Lord, like the splendor of the meadows, shall vanish. Into smoke they shall vanish away. . . . [T]he descendants of the wicked shall be cut off. . . . I have seen the wicked in great power, and spreading himself like a native green tree, yet he passed away, and behold, he was no more; indeed I sought him, but he could not be found. . . . But the transgressors shall be destroyed together; the future of the wicked shall be cut off. (verses 2, 9-10, 13, 20, 28, 35-36, 38)

We can know for a certainty that the unrighteous will get what is coming to them. God always gives the correct punishment at exactly the right time. It is out of our hands, so we need not concern ourselves over it.

5. David proclaims the reward of the upright:

He shall give you the desires of your heart. . . He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday. . . . But those who wait on the Lord, they shall inherit the earth. . . . But the meek shall inherit the earth, and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace. . . . [T]heir inheritance shall be forever. They shall not be ashamed in the evil time, and in the days of famine they shall be satisfied. . . . For those who are blessed by Him shall inherit the earth. . . . [T]hey are preserved forever. . . . The righteous shall inherit the land, and dwell in it forever. . . . He shall exalt you to inherit the land. . . . But the salvation of the righteous is from the Lord. (verses 4, 6, 9, 11, 18-19, 22, 28-29, 34, 39)

If God is on our side, we have nothing to fear from the wicked, and we can look forward to blessings beyond anything we could ever imagine (Ephesians 3:20)!

6. David explains that we can expect these blessings and rewards, not because we are innately wonderful and good, but because God is faithful:

[T]he Lord upholds the righteous. The Lord knows the days of the upright. . . . The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down: for the Lord upholds him with His hand. I have been young, and now am old; yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his descendants begging bread. . . . For the Lord loves justice, and does not forsake His saints. . . . The Lord will not leave [the righteous] in [the wicked's] hand, nor condemn him when he is judged. . . . He is their strength in the time of trouble. And the Lord shall help them and deliver them; He shall deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in Him. (verses 17-18, 23-25, 28, 33, 39-40)

The picture in verse 24 is very comforting. David describes God as a Father, holding His child by the hand. The child has just learned to walk and is not very steady. When he stumbles—and he will—he does not fall completely because the Father pulls him back upright. God perfectly fulfills all the obligations He placed on Himself to do on our behalf. This is another reason we have no need to fear or worry.

7. Lastly, David provides us with solutions to this dilemma:

Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. Delight yourself also in the Lord. . . . Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him. . . . Cease from anger, and forsake wrath. . . . Depart from evil, and do good; and dwell forevermore. . . . Wait on the Lord, and keep His way. . . . Mark the blameless man, and observe the upright; for the future of that man is peace. (verses 3-8, 27, 34, 37)

These are David's instructions on how we should handle our envy of the wicked man's prosperity: Do good, trust God and don't worry! If we patiently continue doing the things that God has commanded us to do—focusing on our own character, rather than complaining about another's—the scales of justice will come into their proper balance in God's time.

No Concern of Ours

Why do the wicked prosper? Some succeed due to Satan's influence. God may allow others to grow wealthy to try our character. Many have natural talents, a kind of Midas' touch, whereby everything they do brings them gain. A few, like the lottery winners, roll in wealth because of time and chance. There are many reasons why uncalled and unrepentant people seem so successful.

In the end it doesn't matter! Our neighbors' fortunes are completely out of our hands. God will deal with them when it is appropriate, and only He knows when that time will come. What is under our control is how we respond to it and—far more importantly—how we handle what God has given us. Rather than gaze enviously at our neighbors' wealth, we should strive to reach the apostle Paul's example: "I have learned in whatever state I am, to be content" (Philippians 4:11). He writes in I Timothy 6:8-10:

And having food and clothing, with these we shall be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

The pursuit of wealth is a path that is likely to end in trouble and unhappiness. If we keep God's way, the blessings will come automatically, as God sees fit. Whether we prosper financially or not, we know that God has our best interests at heart (Romans 8:28). We can rely on Jesus' promise in Matthew 6:33 that God will give us all that we could ever need if we keep our focus on the Kingdom of God and His righteousness.

It is that simple. Do good, trust God and don't worry!

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Nazi Hired Red Vehicles Stalked Me Again

As soon as I left a friend's house tonight, red vehicles, about 20 all in a row, came up behind me and approaching me.

You people, whether you are working for the government (FBI, CIA, Task Force) or for criminals or wealthy corporations, it doesn't matter, you are all the same. EVIL. You will stand before God and answer for this harassment and stalking.

It's easy to be a bully isn't it when you can pick on someone who doesn't know who you are? You are also COWARDS.


Proverbs 11:3--The integrity of the upright guides them, but the unfaithful are destroyed by their duplicity. God will DESTROY YOU.

Acts 13:10--"You are a child of the devil and an enemy of everything that is right! You are full of all kinds of deceit and trickery. Will you never stop perverting the right ways of the Lord?

Those who worship the devil do not receive ministering and comfort from the angels in heaven. They have to seek after the things the devil has to offer them such as a quick fix on some kind of a drug or drinks of alcohol or money, power--whatever else the devil can present to them as comforters.

former Secret Service and FBI contractor, Bill Taylor PI shed light on government's secret program targeting individuals in their homes, communities and everywhere they try to escape for relief and survival.

http://www.examiner.com/human-rights-in-national/ex-ss-fbi-agent-on-rfid-implanted-walbert-and-many-others

Human Right to Private Life - The right to privacy is the right to individual autonomy that is violated when states interfere with, penalise or prohibit actions which essentially only concern the individual. The right to privacy encompasses the right to protection of a person’s intimacy, identity, name, gender, honour, dignity, appearance, feelings and sexual orientation and extends to the home, the family and correspondence.

In the first segment of this interview, Secretly forced implants Part III, former Secret Service and FBI contractor, Bill Taylor PI shed light on government's secret program targeting individuals in their homes, communities and everywhere they try to escape for relief and survival. Part III highlighted Taylor's intelligence career of over 50 years including Chief Investigator of high-profile cases such as the Karen Silkwood Case, the 3-Mile Island case, the Iran Contra Scandal and Phoenix Program case in Vietnam.

Although Targeted Individuals do not require implants to be kept under technological surveillance, harassment, and torture, in this segment of the interview, Taylor answered questions specifically about the James Walbert case of forced brain and other implants. He revealed that trusted medical professionals are implanting children and adults, and explains the military value of implanted subjects. The hidden crime brutally taking lives of Targeted Individuals is more widespread than Americans have known or want to know according to credible self-identified targets' testimonies and Bill Taylor PI. The media and professional blackout on this atrocity continues.



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Glass

Husband and I got into a heated discussion about his "mind games." I told him we needed to stop because I was having chest pains, but he kept on talking about it anyway.

I walked outside to get laundry, putting my tennis shoes on before walking out. He came outside and left, saying he needed to get away.

I was reading at the website freedom from covert stalking about FOOD GRADE diatomaceous earth and how eating it can get rid of parasites.

I Googled this and someone said it was made of glass crystals.

I walked around the yard a little bit, and then felt something gouging me in the bottom of the foot. I took my shoe off and had blood in it. I took the shoe inside and pulled out the object that had been gouging my foot--it was a piece of glass.